Monday, October 20, 2014

CHANGE OF HEART

WHO AM I?
     Here we go again.
     You and I are members of a faculty, work team, parent group whatever; like two Carrot People in a line of People, TRYING to work together. But, you and I have this THING.
It is the same old thing. We’ve been over this ground so often that the ruts between your heart and mine are deep and well known to us both.
I perceive you standing in position “A” and you perceive me standing in position “B”. This is where we each stand.
Then you say “w”, like you ALWAYS say “w”, and I say “x” like I always say “x”.
Your “w” makes my attitude feel like I’ve got to say “x” – I always say “x”, because you say “w”. There you go again!
My “x” makes your attitude respond as you always do. “She sounds like a record player – there she goes again!” Is that all she’s got?” And, then, you respond “y”, and I can see your mind closing, once again.
And your “y” always shuts me down and makes me respond “z”. I’ve got to say “z”! I can’t let you get away with “y”! So I say “z”.
     And we go back and forth ‘round and ‘round. It’s a Closed Loop.

WHAT DO I WANT?
     I want for you to have your eyes opened! For you to see the Truth. For you to have a Change of Heart. For you to change your ways! We’ve been stuck in this position for so long, You are just a Carrot Person. I am now sure I just can’t change you. You’re too stuck, too Powerful.
     But the disagreement is keeping important things from happening. If I can’t get you to “move” in some way, our entire faculty, work team, parent group, whatever will stay stuck.
     This is not about me. It’s not about me being “right”. I’, Powerless - my Power is stuck. It hurts to feel Powerless. It hurts for you to win.

WHY AM I HERE?
     I am here to get our faculty, work team, parent group to move on this project, this decision. Being Powerless is an agonizing experience. The Christ, Ghandi, Mandella, King – the Great Ones were Powerless.  I’m stuck. I don’t want to, but I must be willing to be Powerless. I do not have a clue what to do, my Higher Self, the Wiser Person within me who has been watching this looping for months, can’t get involved because I’m in the Loop.
     My higher self tells me to stop trying – to Reverse My Will – stop my habitual behavior. Tells me not to react to my personal memory stream which only re-creates this habitual looping pattern between us.
     I wait so that Higher Beings can get involved but am aware that negative Beings or thoughts or responses can enter in as well. After all, I am only a powerless human being. So, we will see what happens at each step. I don’t assume or expect things will go my way. It’s a test.
     You say “w” and I say “q” and I can tell by the look on your face that you don’t know what to do – that’s different already. This may cause you to change your position – you haven’t considered “q”. Your fixedness is moving. I hate to admit it bit I guess my fixedness moved, too.
     The agonizing experience of Powerlessness has the Power to engage Beings who have the Power to change Hearts.

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Saturday, October 18, 2014

I AM THE CONCEALER



WHO AM I?
     These are what The Concealer helps me hide from myself:
     My thinking is intelligent and clever. I like to specialize in knowledge. The Concealer helps me get the “inside” story, secrets, the dirt about how they are ripping us off. I don’t want my kids to have a broad-based education – to get ahead today, they must have to be very skilled. The Concealer hides that I only want them to have what I things they need - that I know how things ought to be. Life is all about me and my thoughts, my opinions.
     My feelings are not broad. My love is directed to those who deserve it. I fear people will take advantage of me. Poor people ought to do more for themselves – meaning ME. I have feelings of great pride about my accomplishments. Just because I have had some advantages, The Concealer helps me hide this reality which might give me sympathy. I take comfort from reading the spiritual experiences of others – I don’t really need my own.
     I respect science and technology. I measure my successes by which technologies my family and I have and can operate. I must keep up with the latest. The Concealer hides the affect of these technologies on my capacities to be Human.

WHY AM I HERE?
     Without The Concealer I would not be able to experience a full range of Freedom which gives me great inner strength. In this age, I am cut off from the Truth about myself for an indispensable reason – I need to become as strong as possible. That way I can withstand the forces in today’s world. I must be at full capacity and if that means I’m egoistic and filled with myself – then so be it! This is my preparation for the future – for the time when I wish to transform my capacities into spiritual capacities. I must be Free. Until then, I need The Concealer. (This is the “Micha-el Idea”.)

WHAT DO I WANT?
     My Concealer hides my self-knowledge and only shows me the “self” I want to see. I am a coward. But this gives me Freedom eliminates self doubt. What is the Truth about my Ego – how am I doing?
If I press The Concealer and ask to see the Truth about myself, The Concealer will show me and give me the Sense of Shame which will be the teacher, and benefactor. Shame will help me meet my brokenness.
What do I want? Strength to meet my “Double” – my “Doppelganger” – Myself.

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Wednesday, October 15, 2014

WHEN YOU ARE CRUSHED – WHAT GOES IN? OR WHAT IS RELEASED?


WHO AM I?
     I loaded trucks in a huge rectangular warehouse. A line of loading bays ran down each side. The trailers were like giant rectangular ovens. Boxes came down the conveyor belt and piled up behind me. I had to build tiers of boxes from floor to ceiling and wall-to-wall in a specific way.

     I became a sorter and worked on a steel-grate overhead. I sorted boxes by zip code and put them onto specific conveyor belts to go to trailer loaders to be sent to other sort centers.



WHY AM I HERE?

     The danger of box jams on the conveyors was real. Sometimes boxes would fall off and hit you. This caused me to have nightmares of and a fear of being physically crushed by boxes. At night I would crouch on our bed and look up for falling boxes, cover my head and hop out of the way. My wife couldn’t help me. Eventually, I would go to sleep.

     I felt like my spirit was being crushed in a corporate machine – literally in a machine of commerce. We had to develop immense memories of zip codes so we could lend our brains (in  that pre-computer era) to recognize zip codes and place the box on the correct conveyor belt every 5-seconds. Some men sorted “automatically” and kept an imaginative activity going as well – a dual brain function. Bob who sorted next to me would laugh aloud at times and I would ask him what he was doing. “Watching movies in my mind.”



WHAT GOES IN? WHAT IS RELEASED?

     Mind numbing, repetitious activities, dangerous circumstances, fear, fixed positions, and other activities are just a part of some jobs. But the human spirit can transform such functions into higher order memorization capacities or dual-function thinking. When you work in giant warehouse sized machine, or other production, assembly or packing type center, your body, soul and spirit are trapped. But creativity can come and enter in.

     Many people have experienced hard things in life outside the corporate world. Construction, logging, mechanics, etc. are tough and dangerous. Many become very innovative and creative on their jobs.

     For others who do not have such activities in their lives, many seek to avoid the hard things in life. We meditate, stay centered, avoid, care for ourselves with massages, fun activities such as electronics offer us.

     But, without being challenged, broken, wounded, or tested how will our spirits receive anything creative or idealistic from the spiritual world? Or, maybe we need to be crushed so that we can offer the unique gift we keep locked tight within us, and be an inspiration to someone else?



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Thursday, October 9, 2014

WHO LETS THE DOGS OUT?
I Keep Three Big Dogs: Anger, Doubt and Egoism



WHO AM I?
     I keep three big dogs and I keep them fenced in. I keep them for self-protection. Sometimes they get out and run about terrorizing people. And I have to go chasing them.  Then I have to apologize. These are very BIG dogs. They are very important parts of my life. I could not do without them. I do my best to try to hold the in but, BIG dogs can seem like they have a mind of their own.
     The first dog is ANGER. He is the loudest barking dog of the bunch. But he helps keep away BAD people. What would I do without Anger? He is probably the most aggressive of all three.
     My second dog is DOUBT. He doesn’t bark at all. He grumbles in the corner, sniffs strangers trousers and shakes his head. Mostly he growls. But I gotta say, Doubt can be aggressive too.
     My third dog is EGOISM. I’m so Proud of him! He is just everything that I’ve ever wanted in a dog! Yeah when my Ego gets out and starts running around everybody better get out of the way!
     Whup! There they go! I always wonder who lets those damn dogs out?

WHY AM I HERE?
     Well, I gotta chase down those dogs for one thing.
     And, I’m working on dog training. If that fence is not a hold ‘em, then I better be responsible for where those puppies run.
     Dog training means you have to be smarter, more kind and more action oriented than your dogs. That means you have to train yourself – change yourself. Discover why you let your dogs be so ill behaved.
     What do you need to do to be in control of your dogs?

WHAT DO I WANT?
People are always asking me, “Why do you keep a dog like Anger anyway? Why don’t you just get rid of it?” You don’t want to get rid of your Anger, do you? I think you just want Anger to transform into Love. That way Anger will lead you to Righteous Indignation and won’t cower if it comes across an even bigger dog like Hatred.
I’m training Doubt to sniff out the Truth. When Doubt does sniffing at trousers and shaking his head, that just means this person’s got something I don’t understand. That means I got to spend time learning their truth.
And Egoism? Well, I want that puppy to lead me to the people who are bigger dogs – really big “Alpha Dogs” - so that I can learn Humility and, if they got the “real juice”, I want to learn Reverence.
Who let the dogs out? May be the Wiser Person within me did.

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