Thursday, January 29, 2015

THE PRESENCE


WHO AM I?
     I am the Presence which makes the difference in this moment of your life. The Presence of the Higher Power.
     I am the Presence of something greater than yourself, greater than your intelligence and Ego. The Presence is not something you can out think, pretend doesn’t exist, or get it to respond and leave you alone.
     The Presence is an experience for which many long, but which most of us fear.
Why do we fear these moments? Because we each have carefully worked out whatever passes for our reality, the muddle in which we live, the expertise we have gained, the self-deceits, the shams, the accolades and the excuses. We FEAR what we will experience about ourselves in that moment of the Presence of the Higher Power.
It’s like the moment when Parzival rides out of the Grail Castle after he has not asked the question “Uncle, what ails thee?” and the guard on the watch tower calls after him, “You goose!”

WHY AM I HERE?
     Years ago I had a heart attack. Months later I attended a meditation retreat. Two simple meditative forms: the focused (or narrow) gaze and the wide gaze. I could do the focused gaze like gangbusters. Hold a pebble, look at it in detail, then recreate the pebble in your imagination. N-O Problem!
     However, I could not do the wide gaze: which is NOT focusing on the pebble but seeing broadly. Nope. No way. I had tons of excuses. I asked the teacher, Dennis Klocek, why I could only do the focused gaze. He said, “Because your heart is afraid that if you don’t hold onto the details, that you will disappear. That’s what hardened your heart and caused your heart attack.”
     My heart had carefully orchestrated my life so that I only did what I was good at (detailed work), what I wanted to do, because I WAS good, and it almost killed me.
“Jean-o, what ails thee?” Me.

WHAT DO I WANT?
     The question becomes: how do I BE different? How can any of us change?
     The Presence of the Higher Power is many times about reversal. We narrow-gazers need the courage to risk the wide gaze, to do the opposite of what our heart says we should do. To have a change of heart.
Or, if we are wide gaze people, we must risk diving into the details, struggling to keep it all straight, and learning things “by heart”.
     Ask the Question: “What ails thee?” Call forth the Presence which makes the difference in this moment of your life. The Presence of the Higher Power.  And then wait. Reversal does not mean specifically DOING anything different – but BEING different.

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Monday, January 19, 2015

CALENDAR OF VIRTUES - DEC 21 - JAN 20
COURAGE BECOMES POWER TO REDEEM

ABOUT THE CALENDAR OF VIRTUES

    The Calendar of Virtues represents a year-round opportunity to practice Virtue Transitions while outer nature is going through analogous changes. Your inner practice will be reflected in the outer world which can strengthen your experience. 

PLEASE  READ THE POST AND THEN ADD YOUR INSIGHTS IN THE COMMENTS SECTION ON THE CALENDAR OF VIRTUES WEB SITE

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THIS MONTH’S VIRTUE TRANSITION:,
CALENDAR OF VIRTUES –  DECEMBER 21 - JANUARY 20:

COURAGE BECOMES POWER TO REDEEM
 Opposite: Timidity, Anxiety

PLEASE WRITE YOUR INSIGHTS - Then, please post your insights (150 - 200 words max.) in the COMMENTS area on the Calendar of Virtues page starting Dec 20, 2014 http://calendarofvirtues.blogspot.com/

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STARTING JANUARY  21 WE WILL BEGIN 
OBSERVING A NEW VIRTUES PAIR:

Jan 21 - Feb 20: Discretion Becomes Meditative Strength
OPPOSITE: Criticism, Comment


NEXT MONTH:

Feb 21 – Mar 20: Magnanimity Becomes Love

 Opposite: Pettiness

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Sunday, January 18, 2015

I AM A HAMSTER RUNNING IN MY WHEEL


WHO AM I?
     I am SO busy! I have two day-planners. I make notes of my notes so I make sure I don’t forget to do something.
     Each day I double-check on each of my personal agenda items.
     I send emails.
     I make phone calls.
     I note the emails on the proper logs.
     I save the digital files noting my note.
     Then I sip my water bottle.
     Then I push the wheel a bit more. That’s my very important job! Pushing this wheel. It won’t go around without me running on it.
     Gotta double check the bank accounts.
     I use bookkeeping software so I can follow my accounts.
     So I run on my wheel.

WHY AM I HERE?
Do I run on the wheel BECAUSE I have the wheel or do I have the wheel because I feel so ANXIOUS?
I feel late.
     It’s January. Taxes are due in April. Don’t wanna be late. Don’t wanna be penalized. Tax returns were connected to everything in our lives. Taxes are the big country-sized wheel around which all my paperwork and book keeping revolves and which keeps our country going! It’s patriotic. I wear Red, White and Blue and I drink Tea and have my own Tea Party!
     We all have our little wheels that feed into the big wheel – without our taxes the country doesn’t have any money to buy bombs to blow sand up in the desert, buy scanners to see my underwear at the airport, or other patriotic things – like scanning my e-mails.
I just checked my planner, and apparently I must to shred my 10 year old tax returns so no one can steal my identity. I got the box out of the garage where I keep 10-years of tax returns neatly boxed and in numerical order on wire shelves. Not too, OCD, eh? Patriotic!
     Geez, I remember all the details of those returns. I’m a little sad have to shred them, but that’s my job today, gotta push my wheel around. Make room for a new box of receipts.
     Then I sip my water bottle.
     Maybe I could hook my shredder to my wheel. That’d be cool!
WHAT DO I WANT?
     This wheel needs a little oiling, it’s squeaky. ‘course I can’t take a day off to oil it because I’m so busy.
     When I worked for a corporation – a very BIG corporation - I had a very big wheel I had to turn. It really wasn’t MY wheel – it was one of the Corporate wheels. I had projects I had to do each and every day. I had to move my part of the Corporate wheel. There were lots of divisions. Lots of big Hamsters in Big wheels running, running and running!
     That’s good. Corporate Taxes are what keeps our country strong! Bigger wheels moving bigger wheels! I can almost hear the corporate squeaking going on everywhere across our great land. Very Patriotic. 
     Somebody told me that 26 of the biggest companies don’t PAY taxes.
     Wait! What?



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